Finally, after a forever-seeming wait, my bone marrow aspiration and biopsy is in a few days. [meeps!] The best I can hope for is that they won't find that a ton of mast cells have infiltrated my bones; the worst outcome is a myeloproliferative neoplasm. And, to add to the anxiety, I may be diagnosed with something that requires a zillion dollar treatment AND lose health insurance if the ACA is, indeed, repealed. If the pre-existing condition protection is undone I will be "hugely" fucked...but America will be great again! [vomit]
I keep from freaking out by focusing on the present,my Buddhist practice helps a lot with the remembering that there is no future, there is only this moment.
So, I've been making assloads of holiday cards to keep the creative part of my brain engaged. I have way more cards than friends to send them to. And who has home addresses these days? Not me, I had to text some of my friends to get their addresses because they always come to my house.
My house has always been our gathering place but as I've become more ill I had to cancel our regular dinners. There are too many days when I have to spend at least part of the day in bed. Now my body temperature doesn't even reach 96 on some days--it's often as low as 95.2, making me feel so frozen that I can't even function. Ten tons of blankets don't help much when the cold is inside.
My heart rate mostly hovers around 60. I can go for walks if I use my trekking poles and a motivational sativa. Honey Badger and Kali Mist are my new faves in that category, just in case you stumbled upon this when you were strain researching.
Here are some of the Steampunk Angels I did. More later.